Subhajit

Most of us are lonely. The bigger the city, the larger the designation, the wider the social network - the more and more we are lonely. This loneliness is killing us all from inside, day by day, while we put up a facade on the outside. This is my experience from watching myself and people around me for years. I was attributing some other reasons to it all these years except this one thing - loneliness. There was a phase I was missing my home, parents and my brother when I left home at 21. Then came a phase where my work schedule, colleagues, never ending deadlines and meetings made me feel I am occupied. Occupied to an extent, I forgot to live my life the way it should have been lived. Because I was made to believe that promotions, after office hangouts, networking and everything with some end result was what life is all about. I lived that life for years, diligently, with all earnestness. It rewarded me in the form of promotion, money, artificial human beings around and a bunch of bel

Once while crying out in pain because hot water fell on him (he was 3 or 4 that time), I was concerned for the first couple of hours and then started laughing and giggling at him, something that sounds very insensitive, but I always thought I can act like anything with my brother, younger brother. He has grown enough to be doing everything, but I still behave like an elder brother. Some avoidable big brother behaviour and loads of protective elements - is how I can describe my relationship with him. Delhi, 2002/03 In all these years of growing up together (literally together), we have seen each other in every step of our lives. From updating each other on big purchases, especially when it comes to gadgets to what needs to be ordered for dinner, we discuss quite some stuff. At the same time, we do not discuss a hell lot of things as well, most prominently - the difficult situations (read emotions). Except for a period of 5 years when I left home till he joined me back, we have always st